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They weren't looking for marrying.
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You don't say nothing.
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Either one of you.
ButI know what you're thinking.
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You're just like all the rest.
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And who's to blame for it? Me or you?
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If you'd been a regular father
and had me with you...
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-...things would've been different.
-Don't talk that way.
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-I go crazy.I won't listen to you.
-You will listen.
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You, keeping me safe inland.
I was no nurse girI the last two years.
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I lied whenI wrote you.
I was in a house, that's what.
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Yes, that kind of a house.
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The kind that sailors like Matt and you
go to in port...
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...and your nice inland men too.
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And all men.
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I hate them,I hate them....
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-Oh, it's a lie, Anna, it's a lie....
-So...
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...that's what's in it.
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I suppose you remember your promise.
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No other reason was to count with you
as long asI wasn't married already.
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You want me to get dressed
and go ashore, don't you?
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Oh, yes, you do.
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I suppose ifI tried to tell you
thatI wasn't that no more...
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...you'd believe me, wouldn't you?
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And ifI told you that just getting out
on this barge and being on the sea...
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...had changed me and made me
feeI different about things...
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...as if all that I've been through
wasn't me, didn't count...
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...it was just like it never happened...
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...you'd laugh, wouldn't you?
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And you'd die laughing,
I'm sure, ifI told you...
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...that meeting you that funny way
that night in the fog...
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...and afterwards, seeing that you were
straight good stuck on me...
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...had got me to thinking
for the first time in my life.
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AndI sized you up as different from
the ones on land, as water is from mud.
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I couldn't marry you
with you believing a lie.