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Now, what upsets you? Why did you call me?
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- I'm going to Chungking in the morning.
- Why?
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I received an urgent cable from my uncle.
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He is the head of my family
since my mother and father died.
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Something has happened at home.
Something about Suchen.
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- Who is Suchen?
- A younger sister.
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I haven't seen her since... for several years.
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Can't you handle this
without going to Chungking?
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Mark, it isn't only Suchen.
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I want to see China again.
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To see if it is what I really want to go back to.
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And also I... I think I must
get away from you for a while.
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Get away from me? Now, why?
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To adjust to certain truths
and not let them bother me.
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Thas foolish nonsense. Unless
you've changed your mind about me.
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No. But I can't help asking myself
what I will get out of this
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except to become
a cheap Hong Kong Eurasian.
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That can never be true
and I don't want you to say it.
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Well, I will say it.
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Then I've been wrong about you.
I don't understand your thinking.
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How could you? You're not Eurasian.
:46:20
Your pride and sense of dignity
are not involved.
:46:23
Of course they are! You're not
something I picked up off the street.
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- You're oversensitive about being Eurasian.
- I am trying to be sensible.
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You are an American.
In my heart I am Chinese.
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You are married. I am a widow.
You are ajournalist,
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a front-row spectator not directly involved.
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I am a doctor deeply involved,
with a duty toward my people.
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- I don't want anything sordid to...
- Sordid?! I'm in love with you.
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Don't you understand, Suyin? I love you.
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Oh, Mark. We both know that even
the fat, ugly people of this world
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believe that being in love makes
them beautiful and justifies everything.