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What did the Party
do for Agostino?
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And what did you do for him?
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You were sleeping and
his death woke you up.
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Why expect the Party to do
what you couldn't do?
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Just because I couldn't do it.
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You're on the outside and believe
you are more involved than most.
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I know your sort...
Your problem is something else.
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If you had more courage
you would talk about Gina.
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You once lent me a book.
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A phrase was underlined:
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''Men make their history in an
environment which conditions them. ''
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You explained it to me as:
''Men act...
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in an environment
which already exists. ''
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Men make their history, not the
environment in which they live.
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I am the negation of this theory.
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We must open our eyes.
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You wanted to change me
and I hoped you would.
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Instead, I am a rock,
I will never change.
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I wanted to fill Gina with vitality.
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Instead I filled her with anguish.
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She once told me slightly ashamed
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she had ''nervous fever''.
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I have a different fever.
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A fever which makes me feel
nostalgic for the present.
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While I live I already feel the
moments l'm living are far away.
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Thus I do not want
to change the present.
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I take it as it comes,
but my bourgeois future
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lies in my bourgeois past.
1:30:36
For me ideology has been a holiday.
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A vacation.
1:30:40
I thought I was living
the years of the revolution
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and instead I was living
the years before the revolution.
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Because it is always
before the revolution,
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when you're like me.