:52:01
Timidity...
:52:03
...and an overwhelming fear
of being rejected,...
:52:05
...kept him from seeking more
heterosexual activity,...
:52:08
...which he strongly desired.
:52:10
His fear of rejection began in,
so far as he knows,...
:52:14
...with a traumatic event,
shortly after he reached puberty,...
:52:17
...and was experiencing the usual
quick and intense sexual arousal...
:52:21
...at that period of life.
:52:25
Circumstances forced him to share
a bed with his married sister...
:52:28
...and he became extremely aroused
and desirous of coitus.
:52:34
Unable to express his wish he
simply showed her his erect penis.
:52:43
She rejected him violently...
:52:45
...and harangued him at length
on how vile he was.
:52:49
Ever since then he had felt
extremely awkward and hesitant...
:52:52
...about approaching females sexually...
:52:55
...and every rebuff was excruciating.
:53:00
He began peeping regularly.'
:53:03
Hey.
-Hey, how are you?
:53:04
l'm sorry l'm late.
-That's alright.
:53:06
l got held up.
-We missed the bus but it's ok.
:53:09
Hey, l want to thank you for helping
me out at the book store.
:53:12
Oh, that's ok. lt's alright.
:53:13
l wanted to thank you for helping me.
-You got me out of a fraud...
:53:16
You helped me
because l was doing...
:53:18
Actually l was doing research
at the bookstore.
:53:20
You know so...
:53:21
You don't work at the bookstore?
-No, l don't...
:53:24
l don't work!
:53:26
Actually, l'm working on a project.
:53:28
l'm doing some research
and l was watching you there.
:53:31
That's why l was on the mezzanine.
:53:33
And l...
-Yeah.
:53:33
And l noticed you
doing these things and...
:53:35
...you were so interesting to watch!
-Oh yeah?
:53:38
l'm studying people and l,...
:53:40
...when you took the book and
everything, it was amazing!
:53:43
lt was just beautiful!
:53:44
lt was what l call 'a private moment'.
:53:47
l study people like this.
:53:49
lt's like...
:53:50
...a moment where people
are really with themselves...
:53:55
...and doing things which are,
a private moment.
:53:57
A private moment?
-Yeah.
:53:58
What's that?
-Well...