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Dear Chris, the only reason
I am writing this letter...
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is so that if you ever go poking
into who you are...
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you'll find this message from your mother.
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I would like to keep you,
but there is just no possible way.
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I probably shouldn't,
but I've got this crazy urge to tell you...
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that even if I did give you away...
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I liked you a lot.
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I don't think it's right to say I loved you.
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People are funny about that word
and what it means.
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So, I'm not sure,
but I loved holding you and touching you.
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You owed a lot,
speaking in prenatal terms, that is...
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to a certain man, a Mr. Kotcher by name.
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Although that isn't important,
because he was pretty old already...
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and I think he'll die pretty soon...
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before you would be big enough
to even know him, really...
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if you know what I mean.
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So I don't know why
I'm bringing it up now, Chris...
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except Mr. Kotcher,
this man, was swell to us.
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He was an awful pain in the ass
the way a lot of the time old people are...
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but he was really swell.
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I guess he was lonely.
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And the way I figure it,
he was old and ending...
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and kids and babies
were new and just beginning.
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The one thing he didn't do,
I wished he'd do...
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maybe he was afraid
I'd get the wrong impression...
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was to sometimes...
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touch me.
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Just once in a while, the way a man does.
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Take hold of you and make you feel good.
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Like my brother, uptight old Peter,
never did.
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Well, I guess
you get the picture of Mr. Kotcher.
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P. S: You might just like to know this...