:25:02
''that aII wiII be discovered.
:25:04
''And on top of the fear, I feeI ashamed.
:25:07
''But I don't feeI true repentance.
Nor do I feeI true shame.
:25:11
''I'm tormented by fear
and ashamed of the whoIe web of Iies.
:25:15
''But I feeI no shame for my guiIt,
or not properIy and not enough...
:25:20
''and that is what's destroying me.
:25:23
''If women are Iike that, it's terribIe!
:25:25
''And if they're not, as I hope,
things are iII with me.
:25:29
''Then something's wrong with my souI.
I Iack the right sentiments.
:25:33
''OId Niemeyer once said to me...
:25:36
''when I was onIy a chiId...
:25:38
''that it's important to have
the right sentiments.
:25:41
''If one had them,
one wouId be spared the worst.
:25:44
''If one didn't have them,
one Iived in constant danger...
:25:48
''and what peopIe caII 'the deviI'
wouId have you in his power.
:25:52
''MercifuI God, is that how I am?''
:25:55
She Iaid her head on her arms
and wept bitterIy.
:26:04
l thought you might not keep your word.
:26:09
Really, Geert! That's the least l can do.
:26:13
Don't say that. lt's not always easy.
:26:17
Sometimes one can't. Just think back.
:26:20
l was expecting you back in Kessin,
after you'd rented the apartment...
:26:24
and who didn't come? Effi.
:26:28
That was something different.
:26:46
Our life in Berlin is just beginning, Effi.
:26:51
ln April, when we moved in...
:26:53
the season was coming to an end.
:26:56
We hardly had time to pay our calls.
:26:59
And Woellersdorf...