1:09:03
l must tell you something else.
1:09:06
You're exciting yourself, Effi.
1:09:09
No. Getting something off one's mind...
1:09:12
doesn't excite one. lt's calming.
1:09:18
l wanted to tell you, Mama...
1:09:21
l shall die reconciled
with God and mankind...
1:09:25
with him, too.
1:09:27
Did you feel such bitterness
in your heart towards him?
1:09:32
ln a way...
1:09:33
forgive my saying this now...
1:09:36
you really brought
these sorrows on yourself.
1:09:40
Yes, sadly enough.
1:09:44
But when misfortune befell me...
1:09:46
and finally there was
that business with Annie...
1:09:51
then...
1:09:54
if l may use the absurd expression...
1:09:57
l simply turned the tables...
1:10:01
and convinced myself he was to blame...
1:10:07
because he was sober and calculating
and cruel, too, in the end.
1:10:15
l cursed him.
1:10:19
And now it weighs on your conscience?
1:10:22
Yes, and l want him to know...
1:10:26
that during the days l've been ill...
1:10:30
which have been almost
the loveliest days of my life...
1:10:36
l've come to see...
1:10:39
that he was right in everything.
1:10:43
ln the matter concerning
poor Major Crampas...
1:10:48
what else could he have done?
1:10:53
The thing with which he hurt me most...
1:10:58
was the way he raised...