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Since I was a child
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I had the feeling that something
is missing in me.
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I felt that apart
from my ordinary life
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there is another life,
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a life which is calling me.
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But how to be open to it?
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This question
never gives me any peace
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and I've become like a hungry dog
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chasing everywhere for an answer.
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You should be happy
you've had that experience.
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When I was your age
I was only interested in myself.
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I was concerned with satisfying
my needs and those of my family.
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Suddenly
my wife died in childbirth.
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I could not recover from the shock.
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Life had no meaning any more.
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One day, an old dervish came
to my house and asked to see me.
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We talked together for a long time
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and as he spoke
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I experienced something
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far greater than all the impulses
I normally obeyed.
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When the dervish left me
the experience vanished,
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but I knew
what I was looking for.
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For that,
help was needed.