1:03:02
l knew right away
that it was all a dream.
1:03:07
l told myself in a low voice
that l shouldn't be afraid...
1:03:11
that it was dangerous
to become afraid...
1:03:14
to start panicking,
to try to find a way out...
1:03:19
to cry or shout or pound the walls.
1:03:25
l decided to remain calm.
1:03:30
Katarina started waking up slowly.
1:03:34
l tried to talk to her...
1:03:39
but l couldn't reach her.
1:03:42
lt seemed as though
she didn't know l was there.
1:03:46
She was soft and indifferent
in a sexually arousing way.
1:03:53
l wanted to make love to her...
1:03:55
but she eluded me.
l never managed to penetrate her.
1:04:01
She watched me,
her lids half-closed, and smiled.
1:04:04
l fell blind rage. l withdrew
to stop myself from killing her.
1:04:09
The feelings of rage and horror
almost suffocated me.
1:04:13
l told myself to remain calm...
1:04:15
unafraid...
1:04:18
self-possessed, not unpredictable.
1:04:24
Everything went awry.