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or rather l didn't think at all. lt
flowed like a ribbon across my lips:
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''lf you are death,
then l welcome you, dear death.
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lf you are life...
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then l welcome you, dear life.''
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l am in a closed room
without windows or doors...
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but also without a roof or walls.
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Perhaps l'm locked
in a sphere or an ellipse.
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l'm not sure. lt didn't occur to me
to examine the contours of the room.
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l dreamt that l woke
from a deep slumber.
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l was lying on the floor,
which was as soft as a thick carpet.
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lt was nice and warm,
and l was content.
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Katarina lay beside me.
She was still immobile, fast asleep.
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l knew right away
that it was all a dream.
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l told myself in a low voice
that l shouldn't be afraid...
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that it was dangerous
to become afraid...
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to start panicking,
to try to find a way out...
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to cry or shout or pound the walls.
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l decided to remain calm.
1:03:30
Katarina started waking up slowly.
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l tried to talk to her...
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but l couldn't reach her.
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lt seemed as though
she didn't know l was there.
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She was soft and indifferent
in a sexually arousing way.
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l wanted to make love to her...
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but she eluded me.
l never managed to penetrate her.