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Yes, but what l ask was, how?
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When l came out into society l was 15.
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l already knew that the role
l was condemned to...
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...namely, to keep quiet
and do what l was told...
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...gave me the perfect
opportunity to listen and observe.
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Not to what people told me,
which naturally was of no interest...
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...but to whatever it was
they were trying to hide.
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l practised detachment.
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l learnt how to look cheerful
while under the table...
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...l stuck a fork into the back of my hand.
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l became...
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...a virtuoso of deceit.
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lt wasn't pleasure l was after,
it was knowledge.
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l consulted the strictest moralist
to learn how to appear.
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Philosophers, to find out what to think.
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And novelists,
to see what l could get away with.
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And in the end l distilled everything
to one wonderfully simple principle...
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...win or die.
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So, you're infallible, are you?
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lf l want a man, l have him.
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lf he wants to tell, he finds that he can't.
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That's the whole story.
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And was that our story?
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l wanted you before we'd ever met.
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My self-esteem demanded it.
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Then when you began to pursue me...
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...l wanted you so badly.
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lt's the only time l have ever been
controlled by my desire.
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Single combat.