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Let me tell you something
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I used to go away, to spend night out
I left you alone because...
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because I wanted something to happen
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Something irreversible
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At first I thought it would with
your first man, but it didn't
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And then I just dreamed that
you should have a baby, I still dream about it
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That's why I had an abortion, I didn't want
you to tell me it was all right
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For that same reason, I didn't tell you
I was going to have that abortion
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I was afraid you'd say, Ah well,
do as you wish, my girl
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It's all right
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Has it never occurred to you
at I didn't want anything irreversible to happen
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What do you want my baby for?
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You just want everything to be settled
without you once more, just like that letter
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To be opened after my death
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I'm putting it back where it belongs