:40:03
I cannot read anymore!
I cannot keep my eyes in one place.
:40:08
I keep going back to the beginning,
the beginning...
:40:15
- I have let everybody down.
- No.
:40:19
I have let you down.
I have, I am grotesque.
:40:22
You are not. I will not listen to this.
:40:25
I am grotesque. Look at me
and tell me I am not!
:40:29
You are not.
:40:30
This is not me!
:40:48
When my son was born healthy,
I never asked why.
:40:53
Why was I so lucky? Had I deserved
this perfect child? This perfect life?
:41:01
But when he got sick, you can bet
I asked why, I demanded to know why.
:41:06
Why was this happening?
There was nothing I could do about it.
:41:13
No one I could go to and say:
"Stop this. Please, stop this. "
:41:19
"Can you not see my son is in pain?"
:41:24
My son is in pain. Please, stop this!
:41:28
- He is fighting.
- He is losing.
:41:58
I worked... had friends over,
went dancing. That is about it.