:52:15
Anais, I don't know how much
I dare write you.
:52:19
I would call you,
only I'm afraid Hugo would answer.
:52:22
God forgive if this letter's
ever opened by mistake.
:52:29
I can't help it.
:52:31
I want you. I love you.
:52:35
I've been living with you constantly.
:52:39
But I've been afraid to tell you.
:52:41
I thought it would terrify you.
:52:47
But today as I watched Dreyer's
Passion of Joan of Arc...
:52:51
I saw the mad monk
played by Antonin Artaud.
:52:54
I thought of you like Joan...
:52:56
in all your youth and purity
and single-minded madness.
:53:00
And I saw myself in Artaud.
:53:03
A hungering monk in love with you
and with my madness...
:53:06
and your madness.
:53:09
And the demon in Artaud's eyes
was like the demon in your eyes.