:41:02
There was wind...
:41:04
in the leaves of the trees
:41:08
I can still hear the noise
:41:13
When I entered...
:41:15
it was dark, I did not want
to show my tears to Manuel
:41:21
I sat in an armchair
:41:25
Manuel had his back to me
:41:27
I could not see well
:41:31
I asked him for forgiveness
for the argument in the morning
:41:37
I said that I would grant him
a divorce...
:41:41
that I would manage
:41:45
He did not answer
:41:50
I thought that he was angry
:41:53
I had decided to take
my pills on the table
:41:57
I approached the bed
:42:01
I must have been blind
not to see...
:42:04
I just thought he was angry...
:42:07
I cried
because of his hardness
:42:11
I took the pills
and I was going to leave...
:42:16
but I returned...
:42:19
I could not leave
like that...
:42:24
Once on the bed,
:42:26
I rubbed myself against him,
:42:29
I cuddled him...
:42:33
but he did not react
:42:36
And then
I realized...
:42:39
that my hands and dress
were covered with blood
:42:44
Why wait until
this morning?
:42:49
I really do not know
:42:51
What did you do?
:42:54
I went back to the house...
:42:57
I could not reconcile
myself with his death