1:44:01
He's in trouble, and we don't
know how to help him.
1:44:04
Help him? My God! We could
have been killed. Throats slashed.
1:44:09
You were attracted to him.
1:44:11
Oh, please. Cut me out
of that pathology right now.
1:44:16
Attracted by his youth, his talent,
1:44:18
and the embarrassing prospect
of being in the movie of Cats.
1:44:21
Well... that, yes. Yes.
1:44:24
Did you put that in your Times piece?
1:44:27
And we turn him into an anecdote
to dine out on, like we're doing right now!
1:44:32
But it was an experience.
I will not turn him into an anecdote.
1:44:37
How do we keep what happens to us?
1:44:40
How do we fit it into life
without turning it into an anecdote?
1:44:45
With no teeth, and a punch line
you'll mouth over and over for years.
1:44:48
"Oh, that reminds me of that impostor."
1:44:51
"Oh, tell the one about that boy."
1:44:54
And we become these human jukeboxes,
spilling out these anecdotes.
1:44:59
But it was an experience.
1:45:02
How do we keep the experience?
1:45:11
That's why I love paintings.
1:45:13
Cézanne, the problems he brought up then
are the problems painters still deal with.
1:45:18
Colour. Structure.
1:45:21
Those are problems.
1:45:23
There is colour in my life,
but I'm not aware of any structure.
1:45:27
What are you saying, darling?
1:45:32
Cézanne would leave
blank spaces in his canvases
1:45:35
if he couldn't account
for the brush stroke...
1:45:39
couldn't... give a reason for the colour.
1:45:42
Then I am a collage
of unaccounted-for brush strokes.
1:45:47
I... am all...
1:45:50
random.
1:45:52
- Excuse me.
- Ouisa!
1:45:54
- Do sit down!
- Excuse me, please.
1:45:57
Ouisa!