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And yet for me now, its another type of fight
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We still have to deal with the same old shit
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but we can't really
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know who, or y'know, what the enemy is.
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I don't really know if there is an enemy.
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You know, I mean, everybody's parents fuck them up.
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You know, rich kids' parents gave them too much,
poor kids' not enough.
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Too much attention, not enough attention.
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They either left them, or y'know, they stuck around
and taught 'em the wrong things. Y'know.
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I mean, my parents are just these two people who
didn't like each other very much
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who, uh, decided to get married and have a kid,
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and they try their best to be nice to me.
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-Did your parents divorce?
-Yeah.Finally
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They should have done it a lot sooner, but they stuck together
for a while for the well-being of my sister and I, thank you very much.
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I remember my mother once. She told me, right in front
of my father, they were having this big fight,
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that he didn't really want to have me,
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y'know, that he was really pissed off when he found
out that she was pregnant with me,
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y'know, that I was this big mistake.
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And I think that really shaped the way I think. I always saw
the world as this place where I really wasn't meant to be.
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-That's so sad.
-No, I mean,
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I eventually kind of took pride in it.
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Y'know, like my life was my own doing, or something
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-Y'know, like I was crashing 'The Big Party.'
-That's a way to see it.
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Y'know, my parents, they're still married,
and I guess they're very happy
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but I just think its an healthy process to rebel
against everything that came before.
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You know, I've been wondering lately. Do you know
anyone who's in a happy relationship?
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Uh, yeah, sure. Y'know, I know happy couples.
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But I think they lie to each other.
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Hmf. Yeah.
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People can lead their life as I lie.
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My grandmother, she was married to this man, and I always
thought she had a very simple, uncomplicated love life.
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But she just confessed to me that she spent her whole life dreaming
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about another man she was always in love with.
She just accepted her fate.