:01:02
The times we spent.
:01:04
- Doing nothing sometimes.
- Doing everything.
:01:07
- It didn't matter what we did.
- Anything.
:01:09
- It was just so good.
- It was like a drug.
:01:13
Every day, whatever I was doing,
the whole world was beautiful.
:01:17
Everything that didn't make sense
before, all of a sudden...
:01:22
It was being alive again.
:01:24
It was like I'd been dead,
and now I was alive again.
:01:28
Hope, I guess. That's what it was.
:01:32
Belief.
:01:34
Believing in everything
again, you know?
:01:38
I liked the way I looked.
I stopped checking the scale.
:01:42
- I stopped smoking. I stopped smoking.
- I stopped punishing myself.
:01:47
- I felt good about myself.
- I felt like I could do anything.
:01:53
I used to get so excited
I would shake.
:01:55
Every time I knew
I was going to see him...
:01:59
...there was, like, this electricity
coming out of me.
:02:02
You know, people would say:
:02:05
"What's going on? You look great.
What've you been doing?"
:02:09
- I was on a roll.
- I was strong.
:02:11
I was relaxed.
I was like a pig in shit.
:02:14
- Everything came together suddenly.
- All the loose ends.
:02:18
- All the fear. All the anxiety.
- Sometimes...
:02:22
...you don't even know
you're in pain until it goes away.
:02:25
- And then the relief.
- The joy.
:02:29
- When I saw him...
- I laid eyes on her...
:02:32
- I knew.
- Right away.
:02:33
- This was it.
- Really it.