:30:03
That's what I thought.
:30:08
No, no, no, no, no.
:30:13
I was afraid.
:30:16
I used to wake up...
:30:21
I'd fall asleep and then be wide awake,
and I had to get out.
:30:25
- Why?
- Not because it was bad, okay?
:30:28
But because being here with you...
:30:33
...everything else
was far away, just gone.
:30:37
Me and my life, and every day
what I do and who I am.
:30:41
I was losing that here.
I'd wake up and think, "It's gone.
:30:45
I'm gone."
:30:48
I've gotta get back to see
if it's still there.
:30:51
See if I'm still there.
:30:54
Because here...
:31:02
I don't know who I am here.
:31:05
I get lost here.
:31:07
- Is that such a bad thing?
- It's not that it's bad. All right?
:31:12
It's not good or bad.
It just takes over.
:31:15
- It changes everything.
- It's supposed to change everything.
:31:20
Yeah.
:31:22
- Love, right?
- Right.
:31:26
But suppose it doesn't last.
:31:29
I gotta hang on to what I have besides
this, to who I am away from this.
:31:35
Because...
:31:37
If this isn't gonna last, and this
is all I have, and it doesn't last...
:31:42
...who am I?
:31:45
What are you so afraid of now?
:31:47
I'm afraid that I won't...
:31:52
...ever love anybody
as much as I love you.
:31:58
I can't.