1:42:08
You know how I make it
through my days?
1:42:12
I pretend I'm a widow
with medals and scrapbooks...
1:42:16
and memories.
1:42:19
I pretend you're dead.
That's how my life makes sense to me.
1:42:25
Go away. Stay away.
1:42:42
Why doyou hate me
when I loveyou so much?
1:42:51
You think I hateyou?
1:42:54
I don't hateyou.
1:43:01
Thisjob is eating me alive.
1:43:04
I can't breathe anymore.
1:43:09
Ifl come out,
this guy Lefty dies.
1:43:14
They'll kill him because he vouched
for me, because he stood up for me.
1:43:21
I live with that every day.
1:43:25
That's the same thing as ifl put
the bullet in his head myself.
1:43:30
I spent all theseyears trying
to be the good guy in the white hat.
1:43:36
Forwhat?
1:43:40
For nothing.
1:43:46
I'm not becoming like them.
I am them.