:51:03
How old is your mother?
:51:05
She doesn't write me back.
She doesn't call me.
:51:07
She doesn't--
She's not willing to--
:51:12
So, she's like Annie?
:51:16
Now that you mention it,
she is a bit like her.
:51:18
- How old is your mom?
- Sixty-four.
:51:21
Have you had thoughts about the day
when she would die?
:51:23
Absolutely.
:51:25
How do you feel about that?
:51:27
I feel like it would be a relief...
:51:32
that she'd finally be off the hook.
:51:36
What was different about
your relationship with Annie...
:51:38
than your relationship with Susan?
:51:41
Susan doesn't get high.
Susan doesn't drink.
:51:44
Susan doesn't-- Susan doesn't--
:51:50
She's like a health food store.
:51:54
She's like a health food store.
:51:56
So what do you think about that?
:51:59
It's healthy.
:52:01
So you don't think
very much of it?
:52:04
You dismiss her?
:52:06
I don't dismiss her.
I appreciate her.
:52:09
But you're sarcastic
when you refer to her.
:52:11
Yeah.
:52:13
So there's a part of you that
wants to bury Annie once and for all?
:52:16
Yeah.
:52:18
How do you want to do that?
:52:21
I want her to say good-bye.
I want her to--
:52:24
I want her to cut that cord.
:52:30
I want her to cut
that umbilical cord.
:52:32
So she's got to do it, not you?
:52:35
- You're the passive one here.
- Well, yeah.
:52:37
- What?
- Yeah.
:52:39
Do you consider yourself
a passive person?
:52:41
A baby doesn't cut
his own cord, does he?
:52:44
You're the helpless baby?
:52:47
- Yeah, I guess so.
- Yeah?
:52:49
So you don't want
to take charge of your life?
:52:51
- I can't--
- I can't?
:52:53
I don't have the tools
to cut the cord.
:52:55
Annie has the tools?