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[ Man Narrating ] All my life,
I've lived and worked in the big city,
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which, now that I think of it,
is kind of a problem,
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since I always feel
uncomfortable around crowds.
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I mean it.
I have this fear of enclosed spaces.
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I-I-I-- Everything makes me
feel trapped all the time.
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You know, I always tell myself there's
gotta be something better out there.
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But maybe I--
maybe I think too much.
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I-I-I think everything
must go back to the fact...
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that I had a very anxious childhood.
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You know, my mother
never had time for me.
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When you're the middle child
in a family of 5 million,
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you don't get any attention.
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I mean,
how is it possible?
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And-And I've always had these
abandonment issues which plague me.
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My father was-was basically a drone,
like I've said.
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And, you know, the guy flew away
when I was just a larva.
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And my job, don't get me started on,
because it really annoys me.
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I-I was not cut out to be a worker,
I'll tell you right now.
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I-I-I feel
physically inadequate.
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My whole life,
I've never been able to lift...
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more than 10 times my own body weight.
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And, when you get down to it, handling
dirt is, you know-- [ Shudders ]
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is not my idea
of a rewarding career.
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It's this whole gung ho,
super organism thing...