:49:01
This is the only copy left
in the world
:49:06
Cheng grew up with me,
:49:07
he was like a brother
:49:11
After high school,
:49:13
we lost touch.
:49:15
The next time I saw him,
:49:17
I was already married
:49:18
I always worried,
:49:20
my pictures were
in that nasty magazine...
:49:24
Nasty? Why?
:49:29
Because...
:49:30
my husband is an self-righteous
policeman,
:49:33
if he ever found out I posed
for the porno...
:49:35
what would I do?
:49:37
Once Cheng knew,
:49:39
he opened the book store,
:49:40
and began recovering every one
of the books
:49:42
He even bought this house for me
:49:45
I knew he liked me
:49:47
But, strangely,
:49:48
he never asked anything of me...
:49:51
It wasn't until
I saw this letter...
:49:54
that I realized he was impotent
:49:56
All he could do is watch...
:50:02
My husband knows nothing
:50:06
These past few years have been
so wonderful
:50:12
It's just that...
:50:14
I live in the shadow of my past
:50:17
I feel like...
:50:19
I am not worthy to live
such a good life,
:50:22
because I posed for the porno...
:50:25
No, don't say that!
:50:31
Don't you know
how many young men,
:50:33
night after night,
:50:35
have overcome their loneliness..
:50:37
how many boys,
:50:38
have found comfort
in these images!
:50:40
You must know that?!
:50:55
You're already a man,