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as either
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time-killing entertainment
for those without occupation,
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or as momentary respite for
those who are afraid of pain
:17:10
People desire either real scandals
amplified into rawness,
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or,
:17:17
the illusion of beautifully
adapted fictions
:17:22
It is true of me
:17:25
Unable to create
appropriate relationships
:17:27
I escape into a fictional world,
constructed on a fantasy of daily life
:17:33
Even this film, when completed,
:17:35
will become a device to deliver
a certain amount of stimulation
:17:38
devoid of surprises,
and a measure of time spent in peace
:17:42
Who wants images beyond that?
Who needs them?
:17:48
By then, I had abandoned
her as a visual construct
:17:53
I didn't want to film anything
:17:56
As long as she was present,
I didn t need to make a film
:18:01
I had always been entranced
with the idea of
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being madly loved,
and loving madly
:18:08
And yet this was
a stupendous burden, exhausting
:18:13
Could i reaily bear it?
:18:18
Long time...
:18:20
So you were back
:18:40
Hey, wait!
:18:47
Wait, dammit!
:18:52
What s that about?
:18:57
I gotta go