:15:03
You should have seen Father,
locked up in his silence.
:15:10
Right after dinner he left
the table and went outside.
:15:16
No one saw him withdraw.
:15:21
He stood there...
:15:25
staring blankly
into the dark night.
:15:31
Finally, at bedtime,
when I went to your room...
:15:34
I opened your closet
and pulled the empty drawers...
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only then I understood...
:15:40
as the eldest brother,
what had really happened:
:15:46
The family's destruction
had begun.
:15:50
It began long before you think.
:15:59
It began at a time when faith grew
malignantly inside of me...
:16:05
when I had more passion
than anyone else at home.
:16:12
Me...
:16:15
a pious child...
:16:19
would set my Marian society ribbon
next to my bed at night...
:16:27
and think about God waking me
everyday at 5 AM...
:16:33
for early communion.