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I have to talk to you
about Paulie.
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I know the whole thing must be
really weird for you and I'm sorry
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Like you are the only person
in whom I can really...
:46:14
Look, you don't know
my parents,OK?
:46:18
They are super super straight
and religious
:46:20
And they would literally
never speak to me again.
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And I need them to be
a part of my life.
:46:29
I couldn't deal with loosing them.
:46:34
I mean, I love Paulie.
:46:37
You know that I do.
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She is my best friend
in the world.
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And probably the only person
that I wanna ever love like
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like in the way that,
that Cleopatra...
:46:50
And to hurt her...
:46:54
It feels like I'm choking,
you know
:46:57
Like I'm not in a
breathing world.
:47:03
Beneath there is this life that we're
supposed to live, OK, like those dreams
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that my mother and father have for me
:47:09
and even though
it is killing...
:47:13
even though
it is killing me, Mary,
:47:16
I will never be the same loving,
goofy Tori with her ever
:47:20
I cannot be with her ever.
:47:22
Not ever, ever again.
:47:28
And the thing is, Mary,
it all depends on you now
:47:35
Paulie is going to
take this very hard.
:47:39
OK, she's really sensitive,
:47:42
And she's really gonna
need a loyal friend.
:47:46
She's gonna need you more than
anyone has ever needed you, Mary.
:47:51
You think you can handle that?
:47:57
What you have put that shit on for?