:44:00
I've aIready Iost a coupIe of buddies,
but I don't care.
:44:05
I feeI more comfortabIe...
:44:08
...and I can sIeep at night now.
:44:11
-I really wanna thanK you for having us.
-Sure, it's our pleasure.
:44:15
These gatherings,
this is a recent thing for us.
:44:19
This reaIIy onIy happened since Matthew.
:44:21
And there's a reIief
in that we finaIIy connected.
:44:24
It's nice to see
there are a Iot of us in laramie.
:44:28
Is everybody in the company gay?
:44:30
No, just the three of us.
:44:32
-Are you out?
-Yes.
:44:34
I wasn't out before, actuaIIy.
:44:37
But I thought, ''ProbabIy they aII know,
but I'm not gonna teII anyone.''
:44:42
In the Iong run,
your seIf-esteem just becomes shit...
:44:46
...and I just couIdn't Iive Iike that anymore.
:44:48
A Iot of peopIe decided that
they didn't wanna hide anymore.
:44:51
I stiII don't feeI that free to be out here.
No one's asking, I'm not teIIing.
:44:56
I've aIways been out and I know
how to take care of myseIf, but...
:45:00
...since the episode,
I've been irrationaIIy terrified...
:45:03
...and what that means is, we don't Iet
our son waIk around at night aIone.
:45:07
Every time I see a pickup truck do a U-turn,
I think it's coming after me...
:45:11
...and I'm shaking so badIy,
I have to stop what I'm doing.
:45:14
I think it's because...
:45:16
...somewhere inside,
we aII know it couId happen to us anytime.
:45:30
Since our Iast medicaI update...
:45:32
...Matthew Shepard has remained in
criticaI condition with severe head injuries.
:45:36
As of today,
the hospitaI wiII no Ionger offer...
:45:40
...medicaI updates on a scheduIed basis.
:45:43
If Matthew's medicaI condition changes...
:45:46
...we wiII issue a new medicaI update...
:45:49
...and we wiII immediateIy contact as many
members of the media as is possibIe.
:45:54
Thank you.
:45:58
AII eyes are on laramie, Wyoming, today,
where many are turning their focus...