:50:40
Well, my love,
I'm trying to make sense of things...
:50:45
of how I was, and how I am now.
:50:51
I have always believed
our first duty is to ourselves...
:50:54
to live life to the full.
:50:58
But I have also been haunted
by another conviction...
:51:01
that everything is preordained,
lying in wait...
:51:06
and time is running out.
:51:09
I seem to have charged through my life
in a kind of panic.
:51:14
And looking back...
:51:15
I feel I have achieved little of worth
beyond our friendship:
:51:19
yours and mine, and Mia's.
:51:24
Then one day I woke...
:51:27
and found I had lost
the two people I cared for most.
:51:32
Only then did I begin to realize that
we cannot live alone, aloof from the world...
:51:37
and that to believe we cannot fight
against fate is an act of surrender.
:51:43
You were right when you said that
once I cared for your opinion of me...
:51:48
but wrong in thinking I ever stopped caring.
:51:54
I love you.