:41:06
Hundreds.
:41:08
- Hundreds?
- Yeah.
:41:10
And there were
some men as well.
:41:14
Men?
:41:16
Yeah.
:41:20
- How many?
- I don't know.
:41:22
- You don't know? How many?
- I don't remember.
:41:25
It wasn't many.
It was... a few.
:41:28
"A few." "a few."
What does that mean?
:41:33
Not more than,
I don't know, 10.
:41:36
Not more than 10.
:41:39
Not more than 10.
Peter, that's more than me.
:41:42
It's a disease, lou.
:41:44
It's taken me
all my adult life to just...
:41:48
accept that.
:41:51
Sammy helped me.
He helped me get there.
:41:57
Are you fucking my brother?
:42:01
I went to sammy because I saw
the way he handled his addiction...
:42:04
one day at a time.
:42:05
I asked him if he could help me
to get into a program.
:42:09
He did, and that's
where I met farrah.
:42:15
Farrah.
:42:19
What's her addiction?
Is she a sex addict too?
:42:22
Do the two of you just get together...
you just fuck all the time?
:42:24
It doesn't matter.
:42:28
- It's cocaine, actually.
- Oh. Good.
:42:32
Good... expensive.
:42:34
The worst thing of all, lou...
:42:36
was that throughout
our marriage...
:42:38
I blamed you
for what was happening.
:42:42
Sure. Why not?
:42:43
The more I acted out,
the less you seemed to notice.
:42:45
You had this image of me that I was
like some knight in shining armor.
:42:50
You wouldn't let go of it.
You clung to it.
:42:53
I was desperate
for you to catch me.
:42:57
You have no idea what it's like
to live with an addiction...
:42:59
day in, day out, lou...
to live this secret life.