:50:03
	I was sitting
right next to him.
:50:05
	And he died and I didn't.
You know?
:50:09
	And I don't know why.
:50:12
	But I miss him.
:50:15
	The second I start to feel
like I'm enjoying myself,
:50:18
	this voice comes
inside my head and..
:50:21
	it's like,"How can you be having
a good time when Paul is dead?"
:50:26
	You can't blame
yourself like that.
:50:31
	You don't understand
:50:33
	It was my fault
:50:35
	I got him to sneak out.
:50:38
	I shouldn't
have risked it.
:50:40
	Look, T erri.
Some idiot ran a red light.
:50:44
	It was bad luck.
:50:46
	Messed up timing.
:50:49
	That's all.
:50:52
	You weren't there.
:50:55
	Look, I can't imagine
what you're going through.
:51:00
	But I do know from experience
backing down can become a way of life
:51:05
	Don't leave.
:51:07
	Screw the pressure. Screw the scholarship.
I mean, do your own thing
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