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Gary, you're ok?
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I was just wondering if I can let go of an old painful memory.
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Is it anything you want to talk about?
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When I was a kid I always looked up to my older brother Tommy.
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He was the jock and I was the little performer.
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We were all at the zoo one day.
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I was doing some acting...
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walking on the railing of the gorilla exhibit.
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I fell in.
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Everyone screamed and Tommy jumped in after me
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forgetting that he had blueberries in his front pocket.
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The gorillas just went wild.
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They jumped all over his body...
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and threw him around like a rag doll to get to those blueberries.
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One gorilla would throw him to another gorilla
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who would toss him to another.
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Everyone panicked and cried out for somebody to help - but...
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it was too late...
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The gorillas beat him to death
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before the zoo keepers could gas them all.
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My acting got my brother killed.
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I had to live with that every single day.
:41:14
Gary you can't blame yourself for what the gorillas did.
:41:18
I think I can finally let it go,
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because...my acting saved the entire world.
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And something even better happened.
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What?
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I met somebody who ... took my breath away.
:41:37
Gary, no!
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I am sorry.
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It's just ... things are really complicated Gary.
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I know about Carson.
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I know how it feels.
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God I am so confused.
:41:52
It's too soon to be having feelings for you.
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Maybe feelings are feelings because we can't control them.