1:19:08
I did eventually collapse amidst the
rocks, and I didn't sleep very well.
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My leg was very painful. It was agony.
1:19:16
It was the first night, I
think, it hadn't stormed.
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It didn't snow on me, and it didn't
rain. And I could see the stars.
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I can remember Iying on my back for
what seemed endless periods of time,
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staring at the stars.
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At one point I had this weird sensation
that I had been lain there, conscious,
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for centuries, for lifetimes.
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Becoming part of the rocks, and part
of where I was never gonna move from.
1:20:04
The sun came up, and
it started to warm me.
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And I thought it'd be just so nice to
just lie there, don't move, and never hurt,
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and christ, I got so,
so close to doing that.
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I genuinely believed that I
wouldn't make the distance,
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and I also believed
that I was going to die,
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and I sort of acknowledged it
in a very matter-of-fact way.
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And it seemed very rational
to keep on crawling,
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if you didn't think it
was gonna be of any good.
1:20:43
I think that it was that loneliness,
that sense of being abandoned.
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It was there all the time.
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I didn't crawl, because
I thought I would survive,
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I think I wanted to be
with somebody when I died.