:32:08
I marked my grandfather.
:32:09
That was the first battle
I really won.
:32:12
Before he a preach...
:32:14
he would sing a song, "Lord,
Lift Me Up and Let Me Stand."
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So I just followed
the words to that song...
:32:20
but I was really dancing to
the song that I was dancing to.
:32:24
But I was just... In my mind,
I was dancing to those words.
:32:29
I live with Reverend Turner.
:32:31
He was always there.
:32:32
I miss my family...
:32:34
because that is my family,
my blood family.
:32:37
But on the other side,
I still...
:32:39
when I need
a family to go to...
:32:42
I have my church family
to come to.
:32:45
Clown groups are,
in a real sense, like families.
:32:49
We laugh together.
We cry together.
:32:50
We go through... Whatever
one person goes through...
:32:52
that whole group
goes through it.
:32:54
Me and my homie,
Baby Tight Eyez...
:32:56
we went to school together.
:32:57
He played instruments,
and I was always dancing.
:33:00
It was this one performance...
:33:01
when I got into this whole
clown dancing thing.
:33:03
I was just beginning.
I seen him perform...
:33:06
and I was already labeled
as the tightest clown dancer.
:33:09
I said to myself,
"I want him to be under me.
:33:11
"I wanted to take him under
my wing so I can train him."
:33:14
'Cause I think he got potential
to be just as tight as I am...
:33:16
because I see some
of my characteristics in him.
:33:19
I knew about his background
before I knew him...
:33:21
'cause people would tell me,
"This dude has problems.
:33:24
"He doesn't go to school.
He has no clothes.
:33:26
"His brother stays
in and out of jail."
:33:28
I used to be like that.
:33:29
My moms, she... she in jail.
:33:32
She in jail 'cause...
she don't wanna live right.
:33:35
She been smoking dope
for as long as I know...
:33:39
since I was a baby,
since before I was born.
:33:43
He's had a lot of obstacles.
:33:44
His mom, um,
had a drug problem...
:33:47
and he's had to face a lot of
challenges as a young person...
:33:52
more so
than the average young person...
:33:54
who has the advantage
a having a mom who was sober...
:33:57
or a dad who was sober.
:33:58
He calls me mom, you know...