1:22:02
- It hasn't been easy.
- Why didn't you tell me about it?
1:22:06
- I don't know.
- You knew I wouldn't buy it.
1:22:10
I don't buy it. A crazy wife.
Yes, you knew I had one.
1:22:13
- It was an accident.
- It was a crutch.
1:22:16
You were getting older, beginning
to slip. You looked for excuses.
1:22:21
The accident was an excuse.
1:22:23
Everybody expects a guy to take that
pretty hard. You used it to the hilt.
1:22:29
- No, Bernie.
- I'm right, and you know it.
1:22:33
You're sure of yourself. You don't
know what it means to be afraid.
1:22:39
You're on top of the heap.
1:22:41
Everything's good for you, but wait
till you've had a couple of flops
1:22:45
and people stop talking about you.
1:22:48
You'll get afraid
and look for excuses.
1:22:51
I'm not blaming you. Just stop lying.
1:22:54
Sure, everybody thought
it was because of the accident.
1:22:58
That's what I wanted them to think,
because I was afraid.
1:23:03
Even when I was the biggest, I was
afraid. I've always been afraid.
1:23:09
I don't know why. It was good to find
a respectable excuse for failure.
1:23:15
I could drink a little more.
Nobody blamed me.
1:23:20
No, they blamed it on the accident.
1:23:25
After I'd milked every tear out of it,
1:23:28
I cut my wrists,
not deep enough to die,
1:23:32
just enough to bleed myself back
into the centre of attention.
1:23:37
Everybody felt sorry for me again.
1:23:40
They understood. Everybody
was talking about me and my tragedy.
1:23:47
That's the way I wanted it.
1:23:49
To keep it that way, I lied.
God, how I lied!
1:23:54
I even lied about Georgie!