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What do you think about all this?
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Well, the way I look at it...
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...like I've known Jerry for what?
Four or five, six months now.
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When he moved into the family group...
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...that I was alr...
that I already knew for quite a while...
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...in that time, I got to know him
real well and I learned to love him.
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Like, you know, we ball
and everything, but...
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...it's really a pretty good thing because
I have plenty, there's plenty of freedom.
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Because if we're not going together and
we're not in love or anything like that...
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Can you communicate
with your parents?
1:08:36
I can communicate with
them on, on one level.
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Now that I've been away
from home for two years.
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But at first it was very rough.
Now...
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...they, you know, they're beginning
to mellow about it.
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It's not so hard on them I'm the way I am.
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But I can't really communicate to them...
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...about anything that's really important
because they just could not understand it.
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My mother is really, she really...
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...lives in a lot of pain...
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...because she's sure I'm going to
go to hell and there's nothing I can do...
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...to tell her that there is,
that it just does not exist for me.
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So l, there's no communication
on, on those levels.
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My father was asking whether I was in a
communist training camp or something...
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...in, in the house that I lived in.
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I could understand, you know, where
he came from. Because when he...
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...well, he's an immigrant, you know.
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And so he came over here
to better himself...
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...economically and so forth,
and all that other rot.
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And, to make it better for me and he can't
understand why I didn't play, you know...
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...saying, "Why aren't
you playing the game?"
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"Here's all this opportunity.
Here's, here are all these things...
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...which have so much value."
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But they only have value to him...
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...and he can't understand
why they don't have value to me.
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But he does have wisdom enough
to know, to allow me to be who I am.
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I guess he had some kind of
idea in his head that...
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...I will, by doing what I'm doing,
learn for myself how to live.
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And that's what he wants me to do,
anyway.