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I'm I'm afraid.
I'm frightened, you know.
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- Mm-hmm.
- I've never been afraid of anything...
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before in my life.
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When I was little, I was
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I don't know.
I was afraid of
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that I was gonna get
my clothes dirty, or...
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you know, I was gonna
get bad marks on my report.
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U- U-Uhh.
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I was afraid when I got my period
for the first time.
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You know, l
Well, I got my period...
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when I was, uh
when I was 13, you know.
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And most of myWell
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Some of my friends
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Well, my best friend
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My best friend
was Karen Fienstein...
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and she got her period
when she was 12, you know.
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So I thought there was something wrong
with me, because I didn't get my period.
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So I had a terrible year
from 12 to 13.
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You know, I mean, I-I-I
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I thought there was really
something wrong with me.
:48:04
You know, every time
I went to the bathroom...
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I would sort of, you know,
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- Check and see if l
Yeah, if I got my period yet.
- And go look.
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And, suddenly l
:48:14
O- Oh, I was wearing
I was wearing these...
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dumb little white lace panties...
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you know, that my grandmother
had given me for my birthday or some
:48:22
And, um...
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suddenly I felt this...
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wet, warm feeling
in my crotch, you know.
:48:32
And then l
:48:35
I felt sort of excited, you know.
:48:39
But then I felt afraid.
:48:42
I was afraid. I was afraid...
:48:44
that I was going to get
blood all over the... chair...
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all over my pants.
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Then the bell rang,
and then the class got up...
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and then I saw Karen, you know.
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And I smiled, and I winked
at her, and I went like that.