1:09:16
My back's aching.
1:09:21
Do you mind
If I lie on the floor,
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it's the only
thing that helps.
1:09:31
I remember very little of my childhood.
1:09:34
I can't recall my parents
ever having touched me,
1:09:38
either with caresses or punishments.
1:09:43
I was quite ignorant
of everything to do with love:
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tenderness, contact,
intimacy, warmth.
1:09:56
Only through music did I have
a chance to show my feelings.
1:10:04
Sometimes, when
I lie awake at night
1:10:08
I wonder whether
I've lived at all.
1:10:13
Is it the same for everybody?
1:10:17
Or do some people have a greater
talent for living than others.
1:10:22
Or do some people never live
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but just exist?
1:10:33
Then I'm seized by fear.
1:10:40
I'm seized by fear and see
a horrible picture of myself.
1:10:44
I have never grown up.
1:10:46
My face and my body have aged.
1:10:52
I acquire memories and experiences,
1:10:55
but inside all that
I haven't even been born.