:07:02
Perhaps l just hesitate to tell you
what's troubling me.
:07:06
As long as l don't express my anxiety
in words, it remains a dream.
:07:11
Once l've said the words,
my anxiety becomes manifest, a fact.
:07:23
My desire to kill appalls me.
:07:29
My desire to kill another
human being appalls me.
:07:34
lt appalls me.
:07:40
l want to kill my wife.
:07:44
l want to kill her.
:07:48
l've been carrying that idea
around with me for two years.
:07:56
Katarina has been unfaithful,
and so have l. But no matter.
:08:01
We're great in bed.
Actually, our sex life is fantastic.
:08:05
We make love - how should l put it?
Without emotions.
:08:10
l mean, without having to think
about our feelings for each other.
:08:16
l'm not used to describing
the complicated state of the soul.
:08:21
Perhaps l don't need to say that.
l have the feeling you understand.
:08:27
We love our pleasure. Or perhaps
the pleasure the other person feels.
:08:33
Sex was always best after we had
been unfaithful to each other.
:08:40
But the word ''unfaithful''
is the wrong word.
:08:43
lt has a negative moral connotation.
And we never...
:08:48
l guess it's called
''mutual sexual freedom''.
:08:53
Yes, l'm going on and on.
Now you see how helpless l am.