:39:14
I love him.
The officers all bore me.
:39:18
Why can't I be a sailor?
:39:20
I remain standing in the wind.
:39:23
Cold and headache
clamp my forehead...
:39:25
and crown me
with an iron tiara.
:39:29
I am growing and melting.
:39:35
A naval officer.
:39:37
When I was a young man,
even when I chose this career...
:39:42
I didn't realize what a perfect alibi
a naval career provides.
:39:47
It justifies celibacy.
:39:49
Women don't ask,
"Why aren't you married?"
:39:52
They pity you for knowing
only the transient affairs...
:39:57
and never the true love.
:40:00
The sea, the solitude...
:40:03
Nobody asks me
whether or not I'm engaged.
:40:07
Neither my comrades...
:40:09
nor my mother.
:40:13
From the time I fell in love
with Querelle...
:40:15
I've become
less of a disciplinarian.
:40:20
My love makes me softer.
:40:24
The more I love Querelle...
:40:28
the more gentle and definite...
:40:31
the sadder
the woman in myself becomes...
:40:39
because she cannot
achieve fulfillment.
:40:44
During one of these
strange revelations...
:40:47
defining my relationship
with Querelle...
:40:50
I think amidst all these sorrows
and inner defeats...
:40:56
"What's the point?"