:49:03
What caused this hearing loss,
we'll never know for sure,
:49:06
but whatever it was, it's certainly not
anything serious. l'm very relieved.
:49:12
( livelyjazz)
:49:29
What do you mean, you're quitting? Why?
:49:32
The news is good.
You don't have canc... the thing.
:49:37
Do you realise what a thread
we're all hanging by?
:49:40
You're off the hook.
You should be celebrating.
:49:43
Can you understand how
meaningless everything is?
:49:46
l'm talking about our lives, the show,
the whole world. lt's meaningless.
:49:50
- Yeah, but you're not dying.
- No, l'm not dying now, but...
:49:54
When l ran out of the hospital, l was so
thrilled because l was going to be OK.
:49:58
l'm running down the street,
and suddenly l stop. lt hit me.
:50:01
So l'm not gonna go today,
l'm not gonna go tomorrow,
:50:05
but eventually
l'm gonna be in that position.
:50:08
- You're just realising this now?
- No, l've known it all the time.
:50:12
But l stuck it in the back of my mind
:50:15
because it's a very
horrible thing to think about.
:50:18
- Can l tell you something? A secret?
- Yeah, sure.
:50:21
A week ago, l bought a rifle.
l went into a store and bought one.
:50:25
lf l had a tumour, l was gonna kill myself.
:50:27
The only thing that might've stopped me
is my parents would be devastated.
:50:31
l would have had to shoot them first.
:50:33
And then my aunt and uncle.
lt would have been a bloodbath.
:50:36
Well, you know, eventually
it is going to happen to all of us.
:50:41
But doesn't that ruin everything for you?
lt takes the pleasure out of everything.
:50:46
You're gonna die, l'm gonna die, the
audience, the network, the sponsor...
:50:50
- l know, and your hamster.
- Yes!
:50:53
Listen, kid. l think you snapped your cap.
:50:56
Maybe you need a few weeks in Bermuda
or something, or go to a whorehouse.