:10:00
I'd say I wanted to have a refuge for stray cats, and he'd say veterinarian.
:10:04
I'd say I wanted to be an actress, and he'd say TV newscaster
:10:07
It was this constant conversion of my fanciful ambition
into these practical, money-making ventures.
:10:15
I always had a pretty good bullshit detector when I was a kid, y'know.
:10:18
I always knew when they were lying to me, y'know.
:10:21
By the time I was in high school, I was dead set on listening
to what everybody thought I should be doing with my life,
:10:27
and just kind of doing just the opposite.
:10:30
No one was ever mean about it. Its just, I could never get
very excited about other people's ambitions for my life.
:10:38
But you know what, if your parents never really fully contradict
you about anything, and like are basically nice, and supportive...
-Right...
:10:46
It makes it even harder to officially complain. Y'know, even when they're wrong,
:10:52
its this, its this passive-aggressive shit, you know what I mean
:10:54
its... I hate it,
:10:56
I really hate it.
:11:00
Well, you know, despite all that kind of bullshit that comes along with it
:11:04
I remember childhood as this
:11:07
you know, this magical time
:11:10
I remember when, uh, my mother first told me about death
:11:14
My great-grandmother had just died, and my whole family had just
visited them in Florida. I was about 3, 3 and a half years old
:11:23
Anyway, I was in the backyard, playing
:11:25
and my sister had just taught me how to take the garden hose
:11:30
and do it in such a way that, uh, you could spray it
into the sun, and you could make a rainbow, right?
:11:36
And so I was doing that,
:11:38
and through the mist I could see my grandmother
:11:41
And she was just standing there, smiling at me
:11:45
And uh, then I held it there, for a long time
:11:48
and I looked at her. And then finally, I let go of the nozzle,
:11:52
y'know, and then I dropped the hose, and she disappeared
:11:57
And so I went back inside, and I tell my parents