:39:00
then I'm gonna
be okay.
:39:03
Jay did let go of life.
:39:05
He drowned himself.
He's dead.
:39:10
You couldn't save him
while he was alive...
:39:12
and now you're gonna waste
your own precious life and Luma's...
:39:15
tryin' to save him
after he's dead?
:39:18
- That makes sense to you?
- Yeah, it does.
:39:23
You just wouldn't
get it.
:39:26
You just don't get it.
You never will.
:39:30
Well, I know one thing,
that the only sense...
:39:33
any of these jerks you've
allowed to sidetrack you...
:39:36
have had in common is a belief
in your talent, I know that.
:39:40
Yeah.
:39:43
Well, you know, talent...
[Chuckling]
:39:47
is pretty meaningless
when someone you love is dead.
:39:51
Your talent is meaningless
to you, Denise.
:39:55
It always has been.
:39:57
- From day one you were tellin' me
how you wanted to make a record.
- I made a record.
:40:00
- Yeah.
- About a thousand years
ago, and it flopped.
:40:04
Okay? I put myself out there
and they didn't want me.
:40:08
And they were right.
They were right.
:40:10
I failed and
I've accepted it...
:40:13
and I have come to peace with it
and I've gone on with my life.
:40:17
And so you give up
after one flop, huh?
:40:19
I thought you were made
of tougher stuff.
:40:21
The last thing I ever took
you to be was a coward.
:40:24
Look at you, out in the mud,
pullin' up turnips!
:40:29
[Sighing]
:40:31
You know, I don't need
a lecture, okay?
:40:34
I'm a little old
for a little pep talk from Joel.
:40:38
Especially from you. You wouldn't know
the first thing about...
:40:41
giving yourself to someone,
about sharing your life with someone,
:40:45
sharing your pain
with them.
:40:47
You wouldn't know the
first thing about it.
:40:50
- You think you're the only one
shit happens to, huh?
- Yeah.
:40:52
Huh?
Well, think again, kiddo.
:40:56
I've had my own share
of disappointments...
:40:58
in this secondary existence
of a life I live.