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I have lost too much.
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All I ask is to be able
to remember Anna as she once was...
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when I first met her.
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I try to bring back
those moments, but I cannot.
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I cannot
see her face.
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I can only see her
laid out
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in the railway shed
where they took her.
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She was...
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This new feeling
has not changed me.
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It has not made me happy
and enlightened all of a sudden
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as I dreamed it would.
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just like the way it was with
my feeling for my son.
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-Come to the nursery at once.
-ls something wrong with Mitya?
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There was no surprise
about this, either.
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-What's going on?
-Mitya wants to see you.
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But be it faith or not.
I don't know what it is.
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Through suffering, this feeling has crept
just as imperceptibly into my heart.
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He knows me.
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and has lodged
itself firmly there.
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I shall still be unable to understand
with my reason why I pray,
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and I shall
still go on praying.
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But my llfe now...
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my whole llfe... independent of
anything that can happen to me,
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every minute of it is no longer
meaningless as it was before,