1:44:00
and I'd met Gwen Verdon
at a benefit.
1:44:02
She was very nice,
1:44:04
and I don't think
it was because she knew I was sick.
1:44:12
I wasn't brave.
1:44:14
I took pills.
1:44:16
I went back home
to Battersea
1:44:18
and took pills.
1:44:21
I'm sorry, Buzz.
1:44:25
I don't die.
1:44:26
I'm fucking immortal.
1:44:28
I live forever...
1:44:31
till I take a small plane
to Pittsfield, Massachusetts.
1:44:35
I was late for a concert.
1:44:37
No one else from my company
was onboard.
1:44:39
Just me
1:44:40
and a pilot I never bothered
to look at twice.
1:44:48
I don't know.
1:44:50
I don't want to.
1:44:52
I won't be with Gregory.
1:44:56
His name will be Luke.
1:45:01
I'm sorry, Gregory.
1:45:10
I didn't change,
1:45:12
and I tried.
1:45:14
At least I think I tried.
1:45:18
I couldn't. I just couldn't.
1:45:21
No one mourned me.
1:45:22
Not one tear was shed.
1:45:29
I bury every one of you.
1:45:32
It got awfully lonely out here.
1:45:35
It will seem like...
1:45:37
forever.
1:45:52
Oh! Whoa.
1:45:53
How the hell
did that happen?
1:45:55
- What?
- The lights went out.
1:45:58
There will be no performance
of "The Red Shoes" tonight.