:39:03
It was then that I finally
admitted to myself...
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that I hated her.
:39:12
And I wanted her to know...
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that I hated her.
:39:25
One night we were watching TV,
she decided to take a bath...
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and come back in half an hour
for some show she wanted to watch.
:39:33
As soon as she left,
he started pawing me.
:39:38
I decided this was
the time to do it.
:39:43
So I let him start undressing me.
:39:46
For the first time,
I let him take everything off.
:39:51
I heard her footsteps as she
came back through the kitchen...
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and then they stopped.
:39:57
I wanted to see her expression, but
then I would've seen him on top of me.
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So I didn't look.
I just imagined her standing there...
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until she left.
:40:10
Then I just lay there
until he finished.
:40:17
He was pathetic.
:40:19
Him.
:40:21
Me.
:40:22
You.
I went to the bathroom...
:40:25
and I washed myself off and I forced
myself to go back to the family room.
:40:29
She was already sitting
in her chair watching TV...
:40:33
eating ice cream.
:40:37
That's when I realized
I'd been bargained off.
:40:39
There never was going
to be an end to it.
:40:44
I let him have what he wanted. We didn't
have to go back to our old life again...
:40:47
and you knew.
:40:50
You abandoned me.
:40:53
Even in the womb, you abandoned me.