1:35:00
just for your forgiveness.
1:35:04
Love. Chuck.
1:35:16
[ Knock on door ]
1:35:25
Well...
1:35:27
look who comes out of hiding.
1:35:31
CHUCK: I started thinking,
Trish, you're the only woman...
1:35:33
in the world
who really-- who really knows me.
1:35:36
I know I screwed you over
in the past...
1:35:39
and I'm sorry. I...
1:35:42
[ Piano concerto plays ]
1:35:46
I just want you
to know that...
1:35:52
I hate myself for how--
1:35:54
Goddamn, I hate myself
for how I lived, Trish.
1:36:00
PATRICIA: Nietzsche says
whoever despises oneself...
1:36:03
still respects oneself
as one who despises.
1:36:07
CHUCK: Shit,
I never thought of that.
1:36:09
I can't even despise myself
with any insight.
1:36:13
The insane asylums
are filled with people...
1:36:15
who think
they're Jesus or Satan.
1:36:18
Very few have delusions
of being...
1:36:21
a guy down the block who works
for an insurance company.
1:36:27
All right.
1:36:30
What is this stuff?
1:36:33
I wanted to be a writer once.
1:36:35
I wanted to write something...
1:36:37
that someday some lesser person
would quote...
1:36:39
but I never did.
1:36:41
I'm the lesser person, Trish.
1:36:44
I never say
anything meaningful...
1:36:46
that wasn't said
by somebody else first.
1:36:48
I am disposable.
1:36:51
I disposed of people,
and I'm disposable.
1:36:59
I've been thinking about you
a lot lately, Chuck.