:56:02
never around?
:56:04
Yes, obviously, I can't deal with
the day to day life of a relationship.
:56:08
Yeah, we have, you know,
:56:09
this exciting time together
and then he leaves and I miss him,
:56:11
but at least I'm not dying inside.
:56:13
When someone is always
around me, I'm like suffocating!
:56:16
No, wait, you just said that
you need to love and be loved...
:56:19
Yeah, but when I do,
it quickly makes me nauseous!
:56:22
It's a disaster...
:56:24
I mean, I'm really happy
only when I'm on my own.
:56:27
Even being alone...
:56:28
it's better than...
:56:29
sitting next to a lover
and feeling lonely.
:56:33
It's not so easy for me to be a romantic.
:56:34
You start off that way, and,
:56:36
after you've been
screwed over a few times...
:56:38
You... you forget about all your
delusional ideas, and you
:56:41
just take what comes into your life.
:56:43
That's not even true, I haven't been...
:56:44
screwed over, I've just had too many...
:56:47
bla relationship. They weren't mean,
they cared for me, but...
:56:50
they were no real...
connection, or excitement.
:56:54
At least, not from my side.
:56:56
God, I'm sorry, is it...
:56:57
Is it really that bad?
:56:59
It's not, right?
:57:02
You know...
:57:04
it's not even that, I was...
:57:05
I was fine.
:57:06
Until I read your fucking book!
:57:09
It stirred shit out from you,
:57:10
It reminded me how...
genuinely romantic I was,
:57:14
how I had so much hope in things and...
:57:16
now it's like...
:57:18
I don't believe in anything
that relates to love,
:57:20
I don't feel things for people anymore.
:57:23
In a way...
:57:25
I put all my romanticism
into that one night
:57:27
and I was never able
to feel all this again.
:57:29
Like...
:57:30
somehow this night took
things away from me and...
:57:33
I expressed them to you and
you took them with you!
:57:35
It made me feel cold,
like if love wasn't for me!
:57:37
I... I don't believe that.
:57:38
I don't believe that.
:57:41
You know what?
:57:42
Reality and love are almost
contradictory for me.
:57:45
It's funny...
:57:46
Every single of my ex-es...
:57:48
they're now married!
:57:50
Man go out with me,
:57:51
we break up,
:57:51
and then they get married!
:57:53
And later they call me to thank
me for teaching them what love is, and...
:57:56
that I taught them to care
and respect women!
:57:59
I think I'm one of those guys.