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I'm... I'm sorry,
I don't know what happened.
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I just...
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- I had to let it all out. I...
- Don't worry about it.
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I'm so miserable in my love life,
in my relationship, I always act as...
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Like...
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you know, I'm detached,
but I'm...
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I'm dying inside.
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I'm dying because I'm so numb,
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I don't feel pain, or excitement...
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I'm not even bitter, I'm just...
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You think you're the one dying inside.
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My life,
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is twenty-for-seven...
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MAD.
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- I'm sorry...
- No, no, no...
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I mean, the only happiness I get
is when I'm out with my son.
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I've been to marriage counseling,
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I've done things I never
thought I would have to do,
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I lit candles, bought
self-help books, lingerie...
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Did the candles help?
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Hell, no!
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All right, I'm in love with the way
she needs to be loved, and...
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I don't even see a future for us.
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But then I look at... at my little boy,
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sitting at the table across from me,
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and I think I would have suffered any torture
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to be with him for all
the minutes of his life.
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You know, I don't wanna
miss out on one.
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But then, then...
there's no joy,
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or laughter, in my home.
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You know, and I don't want him
growing up in that!
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Oh, no laughter?
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That's terrible, my parents have been
together for 35 years
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and even when they have a bad fight,
they end up laughing like crazy...
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I just... I don't wanna be
one of those people who are...
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getting divorced at 52,
and falling down into tears,
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admitting that they never
really loved their spouse,
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and they feel that their life has been...
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sucked up into a vacuum cleaner!
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You know, I want a great life.
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I want her to have a great life.
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She deserves that!
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All right.
But we're just living in a pretense
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of a marriage responsibility,
and all this...
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just...
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ideas of how people
are suppose to live.
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Then I...
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I have this dreams...
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What dreams?
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I have this dreams,
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you know, that...
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I'm standing on a platform,
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and...
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you keep going by on a train,
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and...
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you go by, and you go by,
and you go by,