1:01:01
You know, and I don't want him
growing up in that!
1:01:03
Oh, no laughter?
1:01:05
That's terrible, my parents have been
together for 35 years
1:01:07
and even when they have a bad fight,
they end up laughing like crazy...
1:01:10
I just... I don't wanna be
one of those people who are...
1:01:13
getting divorced at 52,
and falling down into tears,
1:01:16
admitting that they never
really loved their spouse,
1:01:18
and they feel that their life has been...
1:01:21
sucked up into a vacuum cleaner!
1:01:24
You know, I want a great life.
1:01:26
I want her to have a great life.
1:01:27
She deserves that!
1:01:29
All right.
But we're just living in a pretense
1:01:31
of a marriage responsibility,
and all this...
1:01:34
just...
1:01:35
ideas of how people
are suppose to live.
1:01:39
Then I...
1:01:41
I have this dreams...
1:01:44
What dreams?
1:01:46
I have this dreams,
1:01:48
you know, that...
1:01:50
I'm standing on a platform,
1:01:53
and...
1:01:54
you keep going by on a train,
1:01:57
and...
1:01:58
you go by, and you go by,
and you go by,
1:02:01
and I wake up with
the fucking sweats, you know?
1:02:03
And then I have this other dream,
1:02:05
oh... where you're...
1:02:07
pregnant, in bed, beside me, naked,
and I want so badly to touch you,
1:02:11
but you tell me not to,
1:02:13
and then you look away.
1:02:14
And...
1:02:15
and I... I...
1:02:16
I touch you anyway,
1:02:18
right on your ankle,
and your skin is so soft,
1:02:21
and I wake up in sobs, all right?
1:02:24
And my wife is sitting there,
looking at me,
1:02:26
and I feel like I'm a million miles from
her and I know that there's something...
1:02:29
... wrong!
1:02:30
You know, that I ca...
1:02:31
that I can't keep living like this, that
there's gotta be something more to love
1:02:34
than commitment...
1:02:36
But then I think that...
1:02:38
I might have given up...
1:02:39
on the whole idea of romantic love.
1:02:41
That I...
1:02:43
I might have put it to bed, that...
1:02:45
that day when you weren't there.
1:02:48
You know, I think I might have done that.
1:02:52
Why are you telling me all this?
1:02:55
I'm sorry.
1:02:56
I don't know, I'm...
I... I should... I...