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I'm sorry.
I-- It's been so long.
:45:03
Too many memories, you know?
I'm sorry--
:45:06
What? That's okay.
:45:09
- I apologize.
- It's okay.
:45:16
I've met, um...
:45:19
I've met somebody who, uh,
who seems to be... Sean.
:45:26
Wh-what do you mean?
:45:28
What are you saying?
:45:30
I understand that this
is gonna sound crazy,
:45:32
and it's not like I haven't already
laughed about it, believe me, and...
:45:36
um...
:45:37
You know that I loved Sean.
You know.
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So much.
:45:41
Of course.
:45:44
If anyone understands that,
you understand it.
:45:49
You know I sent you a card.
:45:52
Christmas.
:45:56
You got those?
:45:57
Yeah.
:45:59
Yeah.
:46:00
It's taken me this long,
:46:03
and I can't get him out
of my system. I can't.
:46:06
I can't. It's not...
gotten any easier for me.
:46:11
And, uh...
:46:13
I met--I met Joseph,
:46:15
and he--he loves me,
he sincerely does love me.
:46:18
And he's... you know,
he's been dealing with me on this.
:46:21
He's been, um...
:46:23
... he's been acceptant of it
and he's not...
:46:27
He's now grown insecure.
:46:30
Because of him.
:46:32
I mean, he's ten years old.
:46:34
What are you saying?
:46:37
He's a little boy.
:46:39
He's a little boy,
I know, and...
:46:41
he said, um--and he told me
his name was Sean, you know--
:46:44
I really hoped that he was Sean,
I really--I wanted him to be Sean,
:46:48
but I knew he wasn't Sean.
I knew it.
:46:50
This is insane.
I mean...
:46:54
It's insane, you know.
But I couldn't help it. I couldn't.